AND NOW I JUST SIT IN SILENCE
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» POSTED ON: 5/11/2014 1:45:58 AM
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  Oi! So trying to make this sat-night/weekend blog a thing again. or still. I've been missing every other week since I started it, so whatever. yeah :)

OK, so time log, assuming I kept it up to date:
* reading / anime... how did this get grouped together? 9 hrs here. biggest single item. Probably under-reported, I know I was up for an extra hour last night reading comic books that I didn't jot down.... so make that 10 hrs.
* IM/chatting--8 hrs. close, sounds sane.
* 5 hrs netflix (may get some more of this tonight, may not.)
* 4 hrs looking up banks. still haven't gotten to act on this yet. Bah.
* games--3 hrs. less than anticipated, nice!
* other research--3 hrs. Not sure what this was now, lol
* jobhunting--1 hr. not finding any useful posts on the state gov site.

Still no library..... <_< haven't been waking up early. That's still an issue.

6) Just undervolted again and cleaned the fans. Still running just around 50C.

B) Now lending the first Coldfire book out. Also got to hang out one night after work again since last post here, and have chatted on IM a couple times. She's interesting, which is a compliment, but logistics are being difficult.

C) Think I'm being less depressed, but right now I'm amped after getting off work on a Sat night so no idea what was going on earlier in the week, heh.

2) Gurps--yeah. new player. First-time RPer, too, and it shows but the rest of us are being cool with it. Somehow Tim is the only one not playing cross-gender though, which I did NOT expect. Also, the player's personality is bleeding through at inappropriate times (I mean, a hippie that wants the pyro to burn down the forest? something's a bit off there... or maybe it's just me? Uh, no, definitely not just me. lol.)
Hoping he doesn't die outside of combat, but that's entirely a family-friendly conversation so you'll have to hit me up elsewhere for that story.

Also, the girl is pretty weirded out by the hippie, so not sure how that will end up.

3) Decided on a bank. Just haven't gotten up early enough to get across town and set things up.

alpha) Have shopped around a bit, just haven't nailed the shoes I want yet. Haven't gotten to too many stores yet though.

beta) Haven't checked fluids yet. Did find a nail in my tires and got it repaired. They think I need an alignment though; need to see about that and also get an oilchange (possibly the latter on Tuesday, not sure if I can do both then though).

Futurecasting:
* Back home for mother's day tomorrow. Gotta check fluids first and wake up horridly early.


Also, spent way too long on writing this, plus I got sidetracked a lot. Started around 11pm and now it's nearly 2am. Sigh.
   
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SOMETIMES I WONDER
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» POSTED ON: 4/28/2014 4:12:08 AM
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  [ where will i go what will i be ]
Don't really feel like writing but not as bad as last night so let me get started and we'll go from there.

Mm, time logs since those seem to be a thing I'm trying to do:
* Lots of time reading again (note to self: mention NXE later) and a bit of anime--about 24 hrs in the last 2 weeks.
* An unexpected mount of time reading Earthdawn materials (since I still haven't done any writing there either)--17 hrs.
* Lets call it 10 hrs playing games since that's what I did last night and I don't think I noted that block down...
* and just a few hours working on my webpage (since the host I'm trying to use is giving me issues and their support ticket system is kinda slow. Well, it's a free account so no complaints unless they can't tell me what the problem is.)
* and 5-6 hrs IMing people. Well at least that's /some/ social contact. With a full-time job, it's so difficult to notice my lack of Real Social Contact this year.

Still haven't gotten to the library. I'm gonna make that its own note instead of numbering it all the time.

6) Undervolted Kotomi-chan twice, temps are under 50! Whee! ^_^

A) Um... sleep schedule is DREK now. I actually was 2 hrs late to work one day; last night I was up till 8am (with no caffeine, and with only ~5 hrs sleep the night before) and slept in till about 5pm. Hoping that doesn't happen tonight but it's already after 3 so not likely. Have to wake early both Friday and Saturday this week though, so can't keep waking late like that.

B) Got to talk to that girl for about half an hour after work this past week. So that's one night out of 6 possible? That's not bad I guess.

C) Definitely feeling more depressed this past week-ish. I know what's causing some of it, and assuming that work and lack of social schedule is causing the rest.
Having a very difficult time starting doing new things v_v
All in all very unhelpful for job-hunting ._.

Other stuff:
2) Regarding GURPS--I'm not sure where my character is going now. The way I'm seeing things: Tim's character is pushing the "plot" along... my character is along for the ride and pushing some other character development... Adriane's character seems to be lazy/reactionary.
I've started branching out a bit into different fire abilities, but at this point I think I've gotten her skills/abilities "wide" enough, and I'm not really sure that making her "better" at most of them is interesting/important. Well, I could always save up 20 points to boost her base stats (just because) and I still have room to spend 6 points on "fatigue" (which she uses like spell points) but....... the IMPORTANT stuff she has is at the level that feels right for this system, and some of the more-flavorful bits almost feel like they're getting overpowered.

The good news is that we're supposedly getting a new player, which will give the girl something more to interact with.
The GM has given some hints into her background being important, and last time people tried "recovering" her it looked like the Head Honcho was there as well.... but it's not seemed to be a plot thread that the other characters have tried to follow much--and the girl by nature is not the research type. (It says so on her sheet: "Incompetence: Research") Do we have two loose cannons in this three-man cell? (Girl sure isn't a Glass Cannon, even if she is a One Trick Pony)

So she thinks she has a family now, and everyday life consists of killing/crisping the monster-of-the-day. She's pretty comfortable, and while that's nice for her, it's bad for story and for her trying to make things different.

The major downside to this character is that while she's getting comfy, the rest of the group hasn't been trying to fix her.......and she's starting to get more obviously powerful and I think her "family" may be starting to get afraid of her.
Not that they'd think of it that way, but they do go out of their way to warn NPCs about her and it kinda comes across that way. (Adriane's character is to arrogant to feel scared, it seems, but yeah.) It's almost like they're just trying to buffer her against the world, but she's not gonna get better on her own, and they're NOT getting her the help she needs.
So we'll see if the additional PC materializes and how that goes.... but I need to figure out what path she's walking. She's feels really protective towards Tim's character, but that just means that the dice were nice last week and we avoided a near-Total-Party-Kill.

Mm, so I really SHOULD figure out what would trigger her to go psychotic-playful. I'm pretty sure I couldn't play her if she gets there, but it's also not going to be a sudden switch, she has too much to learn first, and she may be recoverable if she starts to fall off that side of the fence.
Just because she's "bad at planning" doesn't mean she doesn't have goals, and it REALLY doesn't mean that I shouldn't have plans. ;)

Also... I don't remember exactly how things went down last time but I may have let the other PCs off easy going to the hospital. She has too many bad memories of that place now, even if both the other PCs seem to think of it as a vacation home XD

3) Oh, and I'm supposed to be finding a new bank. Want to get that done this month, which mostly means Tuesday afternoon or Weds/Thurs before work. Yeah, that last one's not gonna happen. Gotta go find a way to find local credit unions, and find a way to sort out which bank is "best for my needs" >_> From what I can tell there's not a lot of measurable difference between banks (aside from when interest is paid and how it accrues) but Chase has the worst interest rates, so almost anything will be better. Bah.

4) Oh! Almost forgot! I was supposed to talk about
Neon Exodus Evangelion. Considering I read it in (apparently) under 24 hours, it's a lot shorter than I remembered (hah). Overall I think I like it; it's got the usual EPU over-the-top heroic characters (which I like, or I wouldn't like Marvel comic books) though it's really not as crossovery as I expect from EPU, especially considering the number of sources they do borrow from. It does have an Original Character rather than a self-insert (for a change from EPU)... but the best point is STILL the mid-season "recap episode". I'd link to it, but it really won't make sense without reading the first two seasons. (If any of my readers insist on just reading the recap, it's labelled as episode 3:0) Let me just say... it makes me yearn for the glory days of ESPN SportsCenter. (Which may not have ever existed, since I don't watch that channel, but when it is on at work I just don't get the same feel from it. So it goes.)

Futurecasting:
* Need to go buy shoes soon. And not "I should do this..." putting it off either; just move some cash over from savings and find a mall that has multiple shoe stores.
Didn't wake up early enough today, maybe I'll have time on Tuesday?
* Oh, and my front passenger-side tire was down under 14 psi today, so need to keep an eye on that and make sure it's not a recurring issue. Haven't checked fluids and such in a while either... need to do that Tuesday if I don't wake up in the morning.

endnotes?
* Mm. Spent close to an hour on this, most of which was GURPS somehow. Unexpected.
I think I'll go for a walk! (I've got way too much energy to burn off right now)
Maybe poke at the pyro some more, maybe try to sort out some other issues? Not sure, maybe I'll just stare at the sky and environs instead? >_<

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THEY KEEP TELLING ME, "REALITY IS OUT OF BETA." I DON'T BELIEVE THEM YET.
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» POSTED ON: 4/13/2014 1:38:15 AM
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  Not... quite 2 week gap. Sorry about the missing week, trying to make this a Sat-night-after-work thing.
...Though I guess with next Sat Passover, I'll gap again. Well, maybe some mid-week after-work thing? Eh. We'll see.

Resetting timelogs since my last post, but first, here's results since last time:
* Lots of time spent reading (and a couple hrs watching anime , more on that later)
* Decent amount of time spend on Earthdawn (still working on chardev stuff, since TRB wants a nice bit of background written up and I'm trying to comply)
* Several hours spent on games, though over a two week period I only logged 7 hrs? That's much lower than I'd expect; again, more on that later.
* Actual projects have 3, 2, 1, and 0 hrs logged. Part of that was the website I'm trying to move FROM had a week or so of downtime and I didn't feel like trying to recreate database structure from scratch.


Recap:

5) ...still no library. sheesh. Maybe tomorrow? Well, that and comic books, since I finally have a free day.

6) Temps finally got back up to 55 either today or yesterday... so when I get a few minutes downtime I need to clean the heatsink and undervolt again, see what that does. Also, I should try rerunning that POV render that will take a week or so of processing, and see how Kotomi handles that now. :3

A) Sleep times seem to be smoothing out a bit.

alpha) Emotional seems to be mostly handled, but I've really been depressive. I'm gonna expand on this in a later section though.

beta) ya know, I think I'll just got for Win7. So gotta set up a plan for saving up for that.

1) No new news. This is backburner stuff so I'll just repost when/if I have something worth saying.


New stuff:
B) So someone at work is trying to make friends with me. This is a curiousity; there was an older lady that I ate lunch with during my first year or so there, but she ended up... moving to Las Vegas, was it? I forget.
So anyway, not entirely sure what to make of it. It's good for morale, though, and made me realize that I don't have any female friends out here since Lucy moved away. Not sure what to make of THAT either.
Our days off don't mesh at all, so she's only at work 3 of my workdays... but apparently she lives somewhere in the same town here.

C) So, um, yeah. Depression. Not sure how much is due to social isolation (I really only see my roommate maybe two evenings a week? And have people to hang out with only one night every other week... and really only get time to Do Stuff on my own twice a week, IF I'm not visiting friends instead. The latter usually happens.) I don't really FEEL depressed but I've not been in a writing mood in over a year, I'm spending more time than I expect to just reading... and very little time working on projects. So depressed or not, I am REALLY drained, and either not recovering properly or don't have enough time for it. (Can't quite tell which.)

D) TGB and I did get to do two fun things this past week or so:
* We started watching Sword Art Online; well, he started rewatching it with me after
I think it's really episodic (too much timeskip and it totally ignores the mundane aspects of "life" in that setting, which doesn't work outside of a mundane setting), but so far it's interesting enough.... and trying to work through setting up a political framework in a 10-thousand-or-less-and-counting-down VR world that people are just dumped into... and each person beats the game or dies on their own... that would be freaking awesome. Except I'd probably suck at it ;)
* Also watched Captain America: Winter Soldier.
Pretty solid movie. I seem to have one minor displeasure, one comment, and two compliments. Oh wait, and another comment/bit of canon weirdness. Spoilering them, because.

Futurecast?
* Easter this upcoming week.
* First 'real' Earthdawn session.
* GURPS on Tues, before Earthdawn. That'll be interesting >_>
* Now that I've got a website set up again, I need to repopulate the databases and get back to work on the purchase/sell AI for my game.

(Saving a copy of this just in case I break the site again)
   
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EVEN WHEN I FEEL YOUR PAIN WHEN YOU CRY
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» POSTED ON: 3/30/2014 10:21:18 PM
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  [even when my heart is cold]

Hmm, "caffeineated" is not a mood here, TGBob?
Regardless... trying to update a bit more frequently here. "Only" 2 week gap this time?

Not doing great at the hourly thing, but I am trying to get back into tracking what I'm spending my time on, since I totally stopped doing that within a year of moving out here. Mostly it didn't seem like I had enough time to DO anything to make tracking it matter, but... I'm not moving forward, which means time IS being spent (on nothing) so that needs to change.

followup/recap:

4) Um.. that was "TRB" not "TRG". Sorry :(
I did find the missing email though; still working on updating to the new campaign.
Also have a couple things from ninja wrapup to do by next week, and a huge pile of catchup sessions to synopsify.

5) Yup, still no library.

6) Undervolted again (twice) and did a little better at cleaning the heatsink, and temps are now under 55 folding on all cores O.o Not sure how she'll handle ripping DVDs since that was hotter last time I tried it... but I don't think I have anything that needs ripping right now.

A) And of course I'm staying up later and not waking up again. Bah. Saturdays have been "going to work with only 4 hrs sleep" which isn't as bad as it sounds since Sat afternoons tend to have a reasonable amount of downtime between calls... but Sat nights / Sundays are weird; I've been crashing early, getting a four hour nap, then crashing again before I can get to church and getting another 4hr nap or so.

No GURPS this Mon AM so if I can wake early I'll get to the library?

New stuff:

alpha) This past week or so was a nasty mix of depressed/emotional. I think I'm regaining some sanity but thats always tenuous/fleeting.

beta) Microsoft is retiring support for WinXP sometime in the next 3 weeks... so I'm not sure if prices will drop for it online, or if I'll have to end up getting Win7 for a virtual machine. In the latter case, I'll have to save up some money for that...

Futurecasting:

1) Debating my approach to the internets. On the one hand it's outdated, but on the other... I really can't get a smartphone without ripping ALL the software out to avoid sending 'free' GPS info back upstream. I'm not if thats a viable option or if it's too much trouble, but I'm also not considering that enough to do the research on it.

If I DO get a smartphone, I would require some sort of virtual keyboard app (which may not exist in a viable state yet) and a VPN connection to my home machine, similar to a supercomputer/terminal setup.

Google glass (or similar AR appliance) would make the interface easier, obviously...

But yeah. I don't like the social media / self-as-brand drek, but when I get a job that allows microbreaks and use of smart/cellphones->internet, I will be very tempted to push one of my side identities that way, presuming I can find one worth publishing content under.

My rationale?
Well, word on the street is that Facebook is starting to pull a MySpace... and it's made a couple moves that seem to be moving away from its current niche anyway.

Of course, I'm mostly just consuming content rather than creating any, but I do seem to like boosting signal for some things... so I'll be looking into ways to do that, in the next year or so. This is all medium-term stuff.\

Also, I seem to be coming down from today's caffeine dose, so I'm going to stop rambling and try to get on to other things for tonight.

More later/eventually :)

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I'M NOT INSOMNIAC RIGHT NOW I PROMISE -_-
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» POSTED ON: 3/23/2014 4:45:26 AM
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  ...Seriously? Why does it always take a month for me to update things here? I guess because it feels like I have Big Important things to write about instead of just short bits? I dunno exactly, but I'm hoping to make myself do a bit more blogging in the future.

I'm also toying with the idea of limiting myself to just an hour for any given activity, but thats mostly so I can try to make some actual progress on things, and not just burn all my time. I'm too good at that >_<

OK, first some followups on previous posts:

1) Found an anime called Psycho-Pass that I watched by myself; it was pretty good; somewhere between Ghost in the Shell: Stand-Alone Complex and Darker Than Black. Probably A-ranked but maybe just B; it also left the possibility of a second season open, but they wrapped up all the plot threads that I'm aware of so I really don't expect much from a second season. Anyway ;p

3) With my new schedule, social stuff is pretty much out the window. I see TGB once or twice a week, and have been awake till 6 or 7 am too many times. (More on this later.) GURPS has gotten moved to Mon noon-3pm so at least that's something keeping me waking earlier. Pyro still hasn't entirely recovered, haha, but an angel seems to have told the rest of the group her proper given name now :D :D We've been doing that game for several months now and I'm not sure where the plot is going but events are certainly proceeding, and now the sky above the town is all red as if the town is on fire... but it's not. yet. The girl is trying to change that but not intentionally, lol.

4) Ninjas did get wrapped up, we have a week to Earthdawn starts so I need to flesh out my character background. Can find my background discussions with TRG from last time though :(

5) Have been reading a little less somehow, actually. Though I'm borrowing a book from Jen. Still haven't gotten to the library next door, either :< :<

6) Got some canned air, cleaned out the fan+heatsink, temps are generally back just under 60 C. Forgot to adjust the undervolting >_<

8) Work on the AMV is being very slow, but I'm got an intro and bridge that I'm more or less happy with, and some other tentative scenes.
This is a 4-minute song though, and Vash talks too much! Lol.
I will be happy if I can find a short song to work on for a bit, if I can find one I have footage for.....

Other recent/new news:

A) Two days ago I checked my schedule and my Saturday shift has been moved back to 1330-2200! Woot! Of course I checked it on Friday, lol, but yay! That's kindof double-edged, since it means I only have about 12 hrs between Friday and Saturday shifts, but it's also a second reason for me to be waking up before noon—and that's always a good thing.

B) Bad-but-out-of-the-way news from this past month is that I hit a rock on my way home from work, put a leak in my transmission fluid pan, and took a couple weeks getting parts to get that repaired :( But that's all taken care of, and was paid for but the monies I got selling the Grand Am, so it stayed off my budget. That was nice at least ;p Now I just have to finish cleaning up the fluids that leaked in the garage -_-


So, new stuff:

First, I only got about four hours sleep last night, and so I got home from work and got... a three hour nap. Now I'm awake again. Sigh. But I'm awake enough to do stuff at least, so trying to find Things To Do (like post this. Hah.)

Second, um... I forget. Give me a second :p Mm... I know I've been trying to think through a couple things, and I'm intending to post some of that, but This Is Not That Blog.
[spends some time trying to get internet radio to work]
Nope, I still don't remember what else I was gonna post. Hah.

Oh! I'm supposed to visit Jen tomorrow, so I'd like to get back to sleep, but if I end up being awake... I'm thinking about trying a church in Dublin that I visited with my parents once a couple years back. I'll update on that once I update here again ;)
   
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